you gave me nothing, now its all i've got

playlist: how to get over being dumped:

stage 1; blubbering in your bed with a box of chocolates while watching cheesy romantic comedies and comparing them to your life:

1. we can work it out, the beatles

2. comfortable, john mayer

3. the best i've ever had, vertical horizon

4. with or without you, u2

5. don't cry, guns n' roses

6. layla, clapton

7. bleeding love, leona lewis

8. i guess im floating, m83

9. i will show you love, kendall payne

10. black balloon, goo goo dolls

stage 2; feeling like youre over it, going out with your friends, saying "fuck him" a lot:

1.  what goes around comes around, justin timberlake

2. its all over now, rolling stones

3. picture to burn, taylor swift (and generally anything by taylor swift, she is one angry girl.)

4.  don't think twice its alright, bob dylan

5. youre so vain, carly simon

6. dont come around here no more, tom petty and the heartbreakers

7.  idiot wind, bob dylan

8. stronger, britney spears

9. love is a battlefield, tom petty

10. 7 things, miley cyrus

stage 3; OK:

1. dream, the cranberries

2. gloomy sunday, billie holiday

3. one, u2

4. free fallin, tom petty

5. ill be seeing you, billie holiday

6. #41, dave matthews band

7.  you got lucky, tom petty

8. black, pearl jam

9. dont bother, shakira

10. lower your eyelids to die with the sun, m83

and obviously, on all of these lists: i will survive, gloria gaynor :)

sorry i haven't been blogging, i know i must sound like a broken record! to be clear, i do read your posts even when it seems i have fallen off the face of the earth. you are all bookmarked on my computer and my phone, and i read your thoughts whenever i get the chance. its weird how i feel like im so busy when im doing nothing.

you give everything you have to one person. so when they leave, doesn't this mean you are left with nothing?

love me some bilson

footprints

im a graduate! its very exciting. graduation was sad, sweet, and a little boring. but now its been graduation parties, one after the other, which has been such a blast. after going from one place to another, im home for the first night in over a week.

it feels weird to be done with high school, but im ready. im ready for college, and whatever comes after it. high school was lovely but as always, insane and unethical and nonsensical. i made some great friends, and a few life long ones.

things i will miss:

1. walking into my room and catching my roomate reading my blog...also, her saying she is going to make her own.

2. taking the train home after classes and just getting in in time for check in. 

3. laughing hysterically on the floor of my room rather than doing homework

4. ordering in

5. dOOp

6. talking each other of the ledge

7. the comfort

i love you, 2009.

and welcome, summer!

roaming

hi everyone...i know i go into these 3 month periods where i do not blog, i dont know why i do this, but im sorry! you all deserve much better. summers here and ill be a dedicated writer/reader.

in other news-ish things, im graduation next week. which is both good and bad. i will miss my friends terribly, and believe it or not i will miss my boarding school. NO i will not miss co-ed and the awful lack of freedom, but ill miss the atmosphere. its peaceful, despite the stress.

but im ready for the next phase of my life, which is college which i hear is a pretty good time. i know where im going and im really happy about it. 

the next week and a half is graduation rehersals, graduation, and graduation parties. exciting.

other than that, you have not been missing much. i have been feeling sad lately for no reason, maybe its graduation or maybe its just because. but im feeling better today with the help of my friends (and your advice, JAG :))

download: lower your eyelids to die with the sun by m83...also helped me get through the blue state.

feeling blue

hoping someone will pull me out of it. i need to find you.

"i wanted a Harry Winston choker for my birthday. instead I got a conscience."

gossip girl was on last night...and it's getting good again! i have slowly been losing interest in the show (aaron=zzzzzz, mrs. carr=gah), but last night they managed to snap me back at the last moment. so, in honor, here are a ton of gossip girl pictures. i realize i do this pretty often, but...why not? happy tuesday everyone, and you're welcome.

oh and if you don't like gossip girl, or pretty people, you should just move on to the next post.  

xoxo

so maybe i went overboard, but i'm just excited. 

and yeah, i threw the o.c in there. nostalgia.

layer cake

still bored, so heres something i found on a facebook friends profile. enjoy?

--Layer One: On the Outside

Name:: cordie
School:: high school. doesn't matter, they're all the same.
Major:: not yet
Minor:: same
Current Location:: my bed mm
Eye Color:: blue-ish
Hair Color:: carmel, i guess.

Righty or Lefty:: righty

--Layer Two: On the Inside

YOUR Heritage:: italian, spanish. a little irish.
Your Fears:: being alone, clowns, petting zoos.
Weakness:: chocolate coins, facebook, boys.
Goal:: happiness.
Regrets:: losing myself.
Change one thing about your life:: i think, nothing.
Relieve Stress:: run, eat, call mom.
Hardest thing ever dealt with:: myself.
What upsets you:: a lot of what is happening with the world. people who use people.
Vent about something:: right now i have little to complain about

--Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow

Your thoughts first waking up:: snooze.
Your bedtime:: whenever i feel like sleeping.
Your most missed memory:: being a kid!

--Layer Four: You’re picking

Pepsi or Coke:: i love a pepsi advertisement.
McDonald's or Burger King:: WENDY'S.
Single or Group dates:: single
Lipton Tea or Nestea:: lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:: chocolate duh
Cappuccino or Coffee: coffee 


--Layer Five: Do You?

Do Drugs:: no
Have a crush:: HE HE HE just kidding, yes.
Think you've been in love:: i am, i have been.
Want to get married:: maybe someday.
Believe in yourself:: sometimes
Think you're a health freak:: i've had stages, ive never been too successful in my attempts though ha ha

--Layer Six: In the Past Month

Drank alcohol:: yeah
Gone to the mall:: yeah
Eaten Sushi:: tonight actually
Gone skating:: many times
Dyed your hair:: no
Done something exciting:: yes! it wold suck to go an entire month with no excitement

--Layer Seven: Have You Ever?

Played a stripping game:: yeeeeh but just for kicks
Gotten beaten up:: luckily, no
Changed who you were to fit in:: yeah, middle school can blow.
Hid something from someone:: haha yup

--Layer Eight: Getting Old

Age YOU'RE hoping to be married:: anytime past 25
Age to start having children: once i get married, well see
Want to travel to:: madrid, paris, bora bora, sydney, aspen, dallas, indonesia etc etc!

--Layer Nine: Perfect Mate

Best Eye Color::  you can't really have a type, it doesn't work like that at all
Best Hair Color::    
Short or Long Hair:: 

--Layer Ten: What were you doing...

1 MINUTE AGO:: this survey

1 HOUR AGO:: lying in this same bed
1 DAY AGO:: laynes balcony
1 YEAR AGO:: someplace very different

--Layer Eleven: Finish the Sentence

I LOVE:: the people that i love
I FEEL:: insecure
I HATE:: anything fake
I HIDE:: the scar on my neck
I MISS:: vacation
I NEED:: home

goodnight, for now.